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she's still
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laughing that's so [Music]
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funny welcome to five lemons lab we're the real stuff the lemons making
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lemonade so Puck her up because we're going to be discussing our life's lessons and the nitty-gritty details of
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our spiritual Journeys
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hey y'all I'm Amanda and I'm Drusilla I'm Melissa hello this is
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Morgan and I'm Penny Welcome to our podcast
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today welcome to another episode of five lemons laughing we have all of our lemonades here today and I'm so excited
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welcome back Melissa she's been gone for a couple episodes oh today we have a fun one so
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what if I told you that no one and I mean no one is responsible for how you
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feel except you ouch yep we're going there today today
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we're diving into one of the most challenging and freeing teachings of a
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course of Miracles the idea that we are 100%
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responsible for our perceptions our reactions and ultimately our Peace So if
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you ever found yourself blaming your circumstances your past or that one really annoying person in your life this
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is the episode for you so let's get into it so what does taking responsibility
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mean from a course of Miracles perspective and how is it different from the way the world
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typically views respons responsibility awesome question wow this
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is a big one today oh so um course of Miracles
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teaches us that taking responsibility like 100% not
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99 and a half 100% um meaning that everything we
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experience in this human body is related to our
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perceptions it's not the external things that are happening around us it is all
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based on how we perceive those things and that we are taking our own personal
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beliefs and projecting them outward and so everything we experience is being
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reflected back to us and I think most of us us are accustomed to knowing that in
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a sense of um sayings that we've heard when we were
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younger when you wake up on the wrong side of the bed everything goes wrong
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right and it that just means when you wake up with a a negative perception or
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thoughts about what the day is going to involve then of course that's what you're going to get and and that's
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basically what it means what the course is explaining um I think the word that comes to mind
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the most and that the course uses um to describe this is
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victimization that you know taking 100% responsibility means that you are not a
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victim of this world that you are a Creator or co-creating with the rest of
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the universe and so with that I think some stories
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might help us to understand a little more about you know how do
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you hell or how do you determine when you are living in vic victimhood or when
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you are blaming you know circumstances even if you're not blaming a person you're
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blaming circumstances like I know with a lot going on in the world today we are
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you know most of us are walking around saying the world is going to hell in a hand basket or something
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right you know and just even natural disasters right you know so let's get
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started let's dive in and let's get some clarifications around being 100 100%
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responsible you know the only thing that that just jumped well not the only thing one of the many things that jumped into
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my head as you were talking Drilla is that how humbling it is just to think
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about that I'm 100% responsible for everything in my life just like yeah
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just pause and think about that for a second well I'm glad you said that Penny
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because I was I was thinking as a way of just like really laying the hammer down
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putting the last nail in on what Drilla just said Like A Course in Miracles like
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a course of Miracle says that not only are we responsible for what we're
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experiencing we're actively choosing what we're experiencing and like God I
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had so much resistance to that concept at first I was like you gotta be effing kidding me I am not choosing this I you
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know I don't want to be fighting with my husband right now I don't want to have a negative balance in the bank account
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right now I don't want you know whatever the case may be um but it definitely is
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it doesn't foot around that it it says in no uncertain terms that we are
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actively choosing our experience and it may be on some subconscious or deeply
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buried layer that we're not aware of but it is happening
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nonetheless have a personal story like you know like a PR not a world just like
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husband and wife story that illustrates this perfectly so I have an
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wait aren't those husband and wife stories way they are good teachers they are oh my gosh you created it yeah yeah
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yeah you chose it I did I did I would choose it again I would so I have an old
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story in my head that my husband brings home his BS from work like when he comes
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home he's in a bad mood like I have this story
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for a long time and it did seem on some level that he did do that and I you know
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I think I've been working on myself a lot lately in letting all those stories go but um last week my husband was
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running home late I was watching a really good TV show and when he drove up I was like I
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better pause this so I could be present when my husband come you know walks in right and like I like that's amazing
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good job thank you yeah did PA I didn't turn
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it off I just paused bre because it was a really good show to it and then so
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Mike comes home and and um he went to put away his lunchbox stuff and the dish
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dishwasher was kind of full which is like a big thing like I think you can always get at least 10 more things in
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the dishwasher always like I yeah yes thank you thank you Mike is like if
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there's like five things in the dishwasher I'm exaggerating there's no more room so he got home and I know he
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hasn't been feeling well and he opened the dishwasher and was like like you know started complaining about the
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dishwasher and I'm just ignoring him I'm like all right I'm gonna be I'm gonna get on my spiritual high horse and I'm
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going to ignore this behavior and then he starts um
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talking to the dog about like no Tupperware available like where's this Tupperware where's you know like and
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he's talking to the dog but talking to me I I don't know if anybody else does that
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but so um in you know and again I'm like I'm gonna ignore this and then it kind
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of went on and on I'm like you know what I'm just gonna let him do his thing and I'm gonna turn back on my TV show and
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that one backfired on me like like immediate
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wow and um so any who it degraded from there just I
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don't need to go into details but it the whole scenario went downhill from there
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and um I recovered pretty quickly and in about 10 minutes later we were back to normal husband and wife tone but it took
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a it took a minute um defensiveness and all that stuff arose and then um I was
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really work working on it at once I got off my spiritual high horse I actually
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worked on my my own thinking like I realized I I
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realized like I am bringing up an old thought pattern from you
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know 10 years ago 15 years ago when you know he really Mike didn't like his job
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I mean like really he I was I was bringing the past forward I was holding
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expectations of how this went and I really went through a process of forgiveness and just recognizing that I
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was holding this so the next night without even thinking about it Mike drives up I let the dogs out and I'm
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standing there and I'm smiling and um Mike is like what happened what' you do
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what's wrong I'm like I'm just smiling at you was like ouch like in my mind I'm
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like oh my God does that mean I never show up smiling when he comes home
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so that was uh that was funny like so I had you know I did I had turned the TV
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off when he came home and I I was smiling because I was happy to see him
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and then the smack in the face reality is that I was contributing to the bad
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attitude when Mike comes home from work so that is percept that my example of
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perception and reality yeah it's a great example
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leanda thank you for sharing that fun story and it's even better so you can
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laugh at it later you know when you could laugh at something I'm telling you that's healing yeah yeah I did something
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similar when I don't know sometimes it's hard to walk into the house and and um I don't
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know I can't really remember what the reason was that I started doing this but when I walk into the house I always go
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honey I'm home with a big smile on my face because sometimes it can be hard to
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walk into the house right and that so I did that to create the atmosphere of
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like oh you're home you know how a dog comes up to you and they're so excited you're home and they want to kiss you
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and and yeah so I wanted it to be that way that I was excited to be
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home um because sometimes I've recognized that sometimes I would rather
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be someplace else and so um that was one of the things that I put in place to um
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take responsibility for how I enter a space yeah so I just wanted to share
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that that you reminded me of that Amanda in your story that yeah it is all about
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that's such a simple little shift and easy to
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practice love that example yeah oh and something as simple as smiling at
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somebody yeah yeah yeah have you been doing it every day
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now so he's getting used to you smiling when he walks up to the house I honestly can't tell you oh no after that I think
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he was off for two days so he was around but he does work tonight so I will thank you for the reminder because maybe I'll
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be smiling when he comes home and maybe naked too [Laughter]
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huh watch your sweet little heart got so o' at night [Laughter]
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girl love that great stories thank you for sharing
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so so how like did did your husband recognize the
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shift or I mean and it doesn't matter if he did or not I recognize it we all recognize it but I'm just curious like
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did you did you notice if he recognized any kind of a shift other than it like he didn't say
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he recognized it but it turned like funny when he came home right because I was smiling and he thought I was like
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something had gone wrong like you know he thought his mind went to uh oh like
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did I burn the house down or did I have a flat tire he needed to change you know
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like something was was going on and then another great example of him being
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respons responsible for what he's yeah so um so we just went to playful
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and we actually had a just a lovely evening is it just changed the tone we
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were able to sit down and you got to talk about work and you know it really did change the whole tone and that was
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me taking responsibility yeah
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beautiful I think the ways I started taking responsibility
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like creeping into that zone was just to watch my reactions like I get to choose
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my reaction I don't have to react either like everyone else reacts or how I've
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reacted in the past um or
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what even like like changing from being offended
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to being like Oh okay that's your opinion you know like that is uh that
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kind of thing has help me take more responsibility like that those were the
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little steps into a to bigger um ideas of taking responsibility but um that's
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been very helpful and it's helpful in marriage like you're saying it's helpful out in the world um I I don't feel like
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a pingpong ball or like a ball and a ping what are those um the play the
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games where you play the Ping P pinball pinball pinball not
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pinball machine I used to feel like a pinball machine up in in there like just bouncing off from reaction to reaction
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bad interaction is that guy at the store gonna say something to me you know like
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and I just don't do that anymore I I um I don't have to react I don't have to
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get involved and I can choose to think something completely different
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like I can bless the guy at the store instead of being worried that he's gonna
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you know cuss me out because I he thinks I cut him off in line or something so um yeah
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I think I used to be very defensive like just walking through life so defensive
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waiting for people to come at me and I don't do
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that anymore even though it was again that's like a huge like I'm creating my this
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life and I'm responsible but I was going through life thinking that everyone else was out there doing something to me so
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um I think that brings a lot of peace and then once you start experiencing that kind of Peace you want more of it
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so you want you figure out how to get less and less reactive less and less
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confrontational and more accepting your favorite word
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it yeah I love that you pointed out the the peace aspect of it Melissa because I
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think that is the the end goal that is it and I think that um for our listeners
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who might want to understand what exactly is the end goal because you you feel like you are giving up something
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right if if nobody else is to blame what am I getting in return what am I getting
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and it's the peace and the more you experience the peace the more you want
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of it so even if you're like Amanda her husband and you have you know 10 minutes
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of chaos and upset you're always once you have that taste of Peace your goal
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is always going to be back like I'm going to do whatever it takes to get back to peace and if that means
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accepting 100% responsibility maybe he was mean maybe he did have a bad day you
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know or maybe it was just my thoughts about him in either case I love peace I
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want peace and that's you know and that is the end
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goal yes this is little bit of a side note but I am listening to a book about
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Jesus but the translations from um the it's called the arama
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Aramaic Jesus and the word peace like TR You
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Know spoken I don't know what the word is in Aramaic but translated forward
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it's not peace isn't the absence of War peace isn't the absence of something
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peace is a state of being and it's it's so when you look about at it like that
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just like it's the state of contentment it's it's a state of being it's not
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trying to get rid of something so I completely agree like being in that
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state of peace once you're there you don't want that upset or like even if it crosses through
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I think it's it's more like a a flash in the pan and for me
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that my dogs are not at pece right
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now so funny well while you wait for them to settle I just want to acknowledge Melissa's friends request
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that we share more details about what we're referencing so what is the book book that you're reading
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Amanda the Aramaic Jesus by somebody with the last name
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clut Douglas K clutz okay huh it's not by Jesus it is not by
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Jesus It Is by uh I'm gonna find it okay because I love what's that your friend's
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name Jill Jill this is for you I'm going to look this up
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so back to the whole point of talking about peace Drilla you're right nothing
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is worth like I'm happy to take 100% responsibility to be in that state of
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Peace absolutely yeah and and like you said it's not the absence of anything it
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is always available to us it's always our true nature so really we're just
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like if we are activated or triggered it's like um you know shaking up the
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snow globe and we're just waiting for all of that to settle before we real recognize the peace that's been
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available to us the whole time and so just trying to access
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that that way of being non-reactive and not getting shaken up in the first place
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is is kind of the goal but I when you were sharing
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Melissa you uh said something about you know not getting as triggered by strangers rude strangers or whatever
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interactions out and about in the world anymore and um it made me think it made
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me think about the runin I've had with the neighbor recently I think I've shared with you all about how we have
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kind of a grumpy NE mean-spirited neighbor if I'm gonna label her um hey
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Sue isn't it salty Sue it is pen not not skanky
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Sue and um yeah and it's interesting because definitely I had a moment of
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like well this is interesting why me why of all people would she have beef with
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sweet little Old Morgan you know definitely had that temptation to go into that victim thinking but I shifted
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it pretty quickly and and the way that I worked with it this time is like I
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didn't even need to get into the how or why I'm choosing this situation I didn't
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need to understand like I just know on a blanket level I am responsible for this
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experience I don't need to know the ins and outs if I do need to know I trust
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that it will be revealed to me but I'm not sitting here like journaling about it or meditating about it or digging
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into it I'm just that acceptance word that Melissa loves to throw around I'm just accepting that this situation came
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into my awareness I don't much care for it I'm responsible um and it is it was pretty
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easy to forgive her and I just like like that's it that's that's my process you
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know what I mean like sometimes like if we like I have I have gotten sucked into
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that kind of pinball thing that were talking about Melissa of going back and forth in my mind like how the F did I
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create this and why the F would I create this and just trying efforting to figure
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it out and thinking that I had to figure it out before I could clear it and heal
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it and be done with it and you just don't have to do all that like yeah so spare yourself that
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like you can if you feel inspired to but you don't have to to dig into all of
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that so I'm I just want to say you can really say I can choose peace instead of this
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oh nice and then walk towards that and I want to make sure people know like if
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it's an abusive situation and you decide to choose peace you're not making it
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okay you but you are taking care of yourself in the fact that you are um
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choose you start seeing your choices in the situation and you
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choose uh to figure out how to bring peace to yourself and and your life
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rather than be in an abusive situation um and sometimes it's really
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hard I say practice with the easy stuff because then when the big stuff comes
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you will be so addicted to that feeling of peace that you will make the right
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steps towards peace and out of out of chaos but I do think one thing
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to ask yourself is do I like the chaos is there something about the chaos that works for me right now or even like
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maybe some people are just even realizing they're living in a chaotic situation and there is something
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different out of that there's I don't live in chaos but I've worked really
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hard to to walk away from chaos or not cre it in the first place I guess yes
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that's that's that's a good place too for for someone out there who's really
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trying to wrap their minds around how do I even begin to understand taking 100%
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responsibility you know I lost my job my dog died and my husband left like how is
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that possibly my you know responsibility and where do I began I think what you
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said is a good point it's just becoming first just becoming aware of your your
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situation aware of your thoughts what are my beliefs about this situation all
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all of the situations what are my thoughts about myself in general that I am never going to be happy you know
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those underlying thoughts that we keep telling ourselves so this is really just about be being aware of your thoughts
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you know I like when U Michael Singer Michael singer in the book um which one
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H gosh the surrender experience or the untethered Soul te Soul when he gives
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that that little example of the he he uses a car let's say
it's a yellow
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Corvette driving down the road and you have this experience with your ex-boyfriend who you know broke your
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heart and he drove that same kind of car and every time you see one you have this like it's not only physical emotional
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mental experience with this car we know it's not the
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car right it is your beliefs and your attachments to the
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card so if you can do that about everything that brings you anxiety or
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confusion or conflict then that's where you start and that's when you can start
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to create separation between the emotional feelings or the reactions that you're
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having to any given situation yeah of course the miracle says that all thought creates form at
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some level we have no neutral thoughts and that's
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yeah either fear or love Yeah and Drusilla what you were
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sharing just makes me think of forgiveness and it goes back to that a course in Miracle and all spiritual
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teachings that are truth with a capital T are you know those holographic
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teachings so if you learn this concept of taking responsibility then you're
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also learning the concept of what a course of Miracles calls true forgiveness it's all the same thing I
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mean and of course Miracle says all forgiveness is self forgiveness so it go it goes right back into this idea of
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self- responsibility and backtracking to my salty Sue situation like when I or or
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any situation that F felt particularly difficult to uh get back to that that
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peaceful awareness um I just I just affirm these
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ACC course and miracles truths that I know like I think Melissa you said I can choose peace instead of this or even
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just saying I am responsible for what I see like even just just affirming that I know the truth and I'm willing it's an
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expression of willingness and then I just have to be okay with whatever agitation or emotions have been turned
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up and just let them run their course and you know that's that's a spiritual
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practice you know like that's great Morgan I remember when I was working at
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um beer Creek a brew and Company a few years ago when I was first starting to
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pract really practice these principles um someone came to order a pizza so and
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there was a little bit of something you know this is real life right not everything went as smoothly as it could
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have and the person said this always happens to me and I it was so
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interesting it clicked into my mind I'm like isn't that interesting this always happens to you you know I didn't say
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anything and what I got out of it was I didn't even try to defend like um I
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don't remember what it happened okay so your pizza was burnt or you got pepperoni instead of sausage I don't
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know what it was but all I did was like I'm sorry that's all I said right and
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then you know they went into um this always happens to me and I
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it just really drove the point home of like what am I projecting in the world
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like and I didn't feed you know am I feeding this drama am I not feeding this
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drama I was it I had the awareness to step back and to watch this little story
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unfold and from um acceptance Melissa and from just being a witness of it U it
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really changed it it helped to change the perspective of it I love love love love that example
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because I I take away two key points from that first of all our words have
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power so if you're that's one way that you can clean up your side of the street
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immediately and start taking responsibility for your experience is be mindful of the blessings and the curses
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that you're spreading with your words and a lot of times we are just cursing ourself day in and day out by saying
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things like bad always happens to me and affirming that and calling it
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forth into our existence because our words do have power you said it before Penny um the ACC course of Miracles
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quote I don't even remember what it was but um our words have power so that's
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the first takeaway I have from that story and then the second is you took responsibility in that moment when you
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said I'm sorry and that's another simple practice that is at a deeper level it's
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working at a deeper spiritual level than even that man that you were interacting with is aware of but on a soul level
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it's benefiting him too um so that's just a simple little prayer it's part of
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the hoono Pono prayer that we refer to all the time I love you I'm sorry please
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forgive me thank you that I'm sorry is that taking responsibility piece so
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that's such a simple practice when we're triggered it is it is and restraining
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from defending or attacking right rejecting or rejecting projecting
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projecting past experiences onto this experience yeah yeah yeah yeah
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yeah okay so I have a pull I have a torn laum in my left hip right and I'm like
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going like what the like how did I create this right is that a tendon uh
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well the lum's on top of the femur bone like goes across the whole femur bone there's a tear like near my groin I
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guess anyway it's just like pissing me off that this has happened to me it's like
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slowing me down and I have to do like I have to take care of myself more now and
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I'm just like gosh darn it I guess okay if I was to take 100% responsibility what I'm noticing is that
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that I will go go go go go and I don't listen to my body to slow
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down and take a rest but now I have to like I'll even still go and like oh my
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God my legs hurt I'm like doing so much and um and I just it's taken me a long time
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I mean I'm 60 freaking four years old and I'm still thinking that I'm like a
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20-year-old and I guess I could have that miraculous healing to be a
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20-year-old but unfortunately but um so I think so the um if I'm taking responsibility for this
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tear um yeah it's just like I I don't listen to my body and I don't slow down
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and so even though I know I'm not a freaking body I do have this body that I need to
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take care of while I'm here at in this lifetime anyway still kind of pisses me
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off but I know that's probably not the spiritual place to be and I'm not quite in
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acceptance but I'm working towards it yeah so what's your responsibility in
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um healing yourself well the responsibility and I'm not taking 100%
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responsibility for the healing either I'm just going to be really full disclosure and honest here I mean I know
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that I need to eat properly probably take sugar out of my diet I have
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exercises that I have been prescribed to do and I do them but I don't do them
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fully um I um of course getting to bed
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by 9:30 at night and sleeping by 10 o'clock will really help my body to heal
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drinking bone broth because that'll help the tissues heal I don't really want to drink bone broth but I started yesterday
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I mean there's a lot of things that I can do to heal myself and I'm kind of doing them half
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ass yeah I'm hearing a lot of resistance from you P yes that's exactly what I was
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going to talk about today was resistance taking responsibility that's
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a very real thing it is trust me I
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know yeah we all go through that and something about like being in a
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spiritual Community right so Penny like I see your resistance I can we all hear
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it and like as your spiritual lemonette right what I know about you is that you
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are a Divine whole being that you move in the world with
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ease and Grace that you're being in wherever you
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are wherever that you're legs take you you are a blessing so that's what I know about you
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penny and I know that for you and that's what spiritual Community is right so
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like I shoot right through Penny's resistance I you know not denying it not
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doing anything to it like we're laughing about it because we all are resistant
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and that's your spiritual posy at work right there yeah thank you of course
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Amanda just dropped the mic right there that was amazing amazing just spoke a loving word
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of powerful blessing over Penny and yeah that was amazing yeah I'm gonna write
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that down and post that on my computer I'll make a poit for that yeah totally
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and like so that's your reminder too or our reminder to you know reach out to
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your spiritual posy not your gossip friend friends who were going to like wallow with you and get on the pity
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train with you and compare notes on who's ailing worse and you know that's
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the interesting that's the interesting thing is like I haven't really told anybody my family they want me to go to an orthopedic surgeon and get surgery
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but I don't think I need surgery but um I don't know yet um but I it reminds me
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of my sister when she had cancer she didn't tell us the extent to what and we
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had ke tell on our podcast before too she didn't tell everybody the extent to
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what it was because she didn't want anybody to feels sorry for her and hold
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her in a light that oh poor pitiful Jacqueline she's got cancer now she's
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probably going to die and so she didn't tell us the extent to how sick she was
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and um yeah she lived 10 years by doing that
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and with a very rare former cancer so I think there is something about that but
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like you were saying Amanda I think I need to clean up the resistance in me or
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I'm just I mean I and I can feel it in my body the
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resistance so help me I need help just acknowledging that
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is a is a great first step and is part of taking responsibility right there
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yeah and and and just not to derail the conversation so hold
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your place hold your thought but just to um expound on what you mentioned you
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mentioned when we had Kelly on the show so we did an episode with one of our dear friends Kelly George who um had a
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cancer diagnosis and she shared all about her spiritual process of um dealing with
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that Journey so we'll we'll find the link to that and post it in the show notes
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thanks was gonna say something just yeah I was just gonna say penny if
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you if you want to dig a Little Deeper to understand what it is why you're
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resisting um could it be that there's something some activity something coming
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up that you really subconsciously don't want to
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do usually the body there's a resistance to something outside of the body right the body doesn't have a mind right
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so so there's um you know there's a spiritual solution to every problem and
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that's what we're here talking about so there is something deeper than what we you've shared obviously um so if you
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really truly want to understand I would just Journal maybe to to try to get a
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deeper understanding of what it is you're really resisting that's a great idea Drilla I
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haven't really journaled about that I'm sure it's all around slowing down taking stuff off my plate I'm so
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damn busy that sometimes I can barely I feel like I'm on a treadmill all day
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long going from one thing to the next and it's all things that I mostly love doing and um yeah so I'm sure it's all
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around that like I need to stop saying slowing down the fear of not being
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important exactly ah there we go thinking that I'm not if I'm not
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proving myself then what right do I have to be uh in this world you
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know yeah and I think I've done
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enough yeah he you are one of the most loving
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friends I have like I think if we were in the same town you would be we'd
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always be hugging and going places and hugging you feel to me like um you know
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you just pour out love and um I would love it if you could see that for
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yourself exactly that's my hardest challenge and that's what I've been working on for all these years that
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we've been together is loving and accepting myself and it's a process for me
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definitely not loving and accepting yourself when you're 20 pounds lighter
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not when you slow down not when you're off the treadmill not when you're un not committing but literally
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at this moment just how you are yep and that's my biggest challenge and my
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biggest area of resistance is i that's where I where my work lies is accepting
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me right now right here where I'm at today at this very moment in
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time yep and that's where peace lies yes I've
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been loving the lessons about peace they also and I can even feel the
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resistance we're um all doing the lessons together this year in the workbook of course of Miracles and I can
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feel the resistance around that M it's like you
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know how sometimes we get started into something and then we go oh I'm
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having to look at my stuff
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right yeah and that is like the first steps in taking 100%
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responsibility is you know I'm all right I'm willing to look at my stuff I'm really you know I'm willing to work on
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my stuff I'm willing to see myself as whole so I don't have to project that somebody
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else is not whole yeah it might not be your
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challenge maybe it's something you're learning because you are responsible for
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your language yeah because our thoughts become things right our word so like
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there's a saying out there like be careful of your thoughts because they become your words be careful of your words they become your experience or
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something like that I can't think of how it goes but yeah thoughts do become things and words yeah
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everything is created on some level and is it on your right or left side left
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and that's your receiving side [Music]
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wow yep that's
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[Music] interesting yeah there's definitely some work here to do and um
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I'm up for it yeah you are yeah I'm going to go do some
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journaling and as I say that it like freaks me out a little bit makes me a a little bit of
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fear you know Rises up that's the that's the funny thing
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about all this work is that fear can just rise up so
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quickly and there is nothing to fear what am I gonna find that Melissa and
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Amanda and Drilla and Morgan think that I'm a a OPP poser and that I really am
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not worthy of being part of this podcast I mean what am I gonna find out that no
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no D you can't hula hoop anymore I don't know oh yeah probably I can't R
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hurdles I mean really like it's hard to get up off the floor
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right now but that doesn't that's not a requirement for this podcast right
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oh yeah thank you Penny love how honest you always
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are so you guys we're coming towards the end of our time W that time went so fast
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taking responsibility is such a juicy topic and it can be applied to so many
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different things there's lots of different examples of how taking
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responsibility shows up in our lives
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yeah anybody have any um major takeaways from
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this is it about time for pen he's posted yeah I just created a last
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one um yeah anybody have anything else they want to
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share okay so we're actively choosing our
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experience that's our first one I really loved it
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um I can choose peace instead of this it was lesson 34 I had to look that up because I did love that lesson in the
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workbook for students in a course of Miracles and then um when it was shared
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that once you taste peace and the more you experience it the more
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more you want it and so I'm going to really work on that I like that and all
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thought creates some form or all thoughts create form at some level
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either love or fear and then really there's nothing to
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fear there's nothing to fear and um before you wrap us up I
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wanted to let Jill know oh yeah the book um I'm listening
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to I'm not reading I'm actually listening to it is the revelations of the arama aramic Jesus the hidden
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teachings on life and death by Neil Douglas
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clots so it's a mouthful that's a mouthful but it's interesting
47:19
and yeah and what he how he explains it
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is like the Aramaic Jesus's actually teachings is a lot more aligned with the
47:30
course of miracles than the King James version is wow so yeah once you really
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get into what he said in his own language it mirrors a course of Miracles
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a lot better interesting little side note yep
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I guess it just goes to prove that there's no new information out there it's been around for a long long long
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long time for those who have ears to hear yeah yeah and that's why there's so
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many different options because we all have different ears that here
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yeah oh thank you so much for joining us today on this beautiful journey through
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taking 100% responsibility for 100% of our results yeah and like um was mentioned
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earlier just take it easy take it slow take responsibility for things that are
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not as challenging maybe at first and then that'll build your muscle to take
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fully responsibility for everything you'll want it more you'll totally want it
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more yeah and then of course resistance could flare up but you can Journal about
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it and get rid of it right so thank you for joining us um you
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can reach us at F lansing.com that's five spelled out Ive and we're on all
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because we'll have another amazing episode next week as well and so with
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that have a beautiful week and we'll hear from you soon bye bye bye bye
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